6 months ago today...

...we found out we were pregnant!

Sometimes it still seems so surreal to me. And six months? That seems like forever ago!

J and I knew we wanted kids. I wanted a spring baby because of my teaching job. I wanted to have the baby in March and take off the rest of the school year. Well, you know what happens when you try to plan something--nothing.

We decided not to worry about it and just enjoy our time together. We figured it would happen eventually and we were not going to stress about it. Stress usually (not always but can) lead to more problems.

Then one day I was shopping in Target. I started not feeling well and thought I was going to pass out. I ended up going in the little girls section and sitting down for a minute. That's how bad I felt. I have a history of passing out and knew that if I sat and passed out I would be okay. It's the falling that hurts you. I called my mom so I would have someone to talk to. She asked if I ate. Yes. Maybe I'm dehydrated. Maybe. Then she asked the last time my little friend visited me (she was really hoping for a baby). I assured her it should be here any day but in the back of my mind I knew it should have already made its visit.

After a few minutes, I got up, picked up a pregnancy test and checked out. I was so embarrassed to buy a test. I felt like everyone was looking at me! I know a lot of people in town plus I'm a teacher. The last thing I needed was someone to see. {Not that they would have cared but I freak out like that}

I called my friend Katie on the way home telling her what happened and that I had a feeling something was up. She had just announced her pregnancy and was hoping I'd be joining her. She told me to go home, take a test, a call her back. So I did. And it was negative. I was kind of disappointed although a little relieved because it wasn't my "spring baby". Katie told me that I had to take one in the morning. They are best in the morning.

So on December 14th I woke up bright and early, got ready for school, and took another test. I was shocked to see that I was pregnant. J knew something was up. I had told him that I purchased a test but it was negative. He told me not to worry and that it will happen on it's own time.

Believe it or not I didn't take a whole lot of tests. I knew there were not many false positives. But I did try both the word and the symbol kind :)

I woke J up right away and showed him. I think we were both in shock. He gave me a big hug and was very excited. Then I had a little meltdown. What was I going to do with a fall baby? How could I take off work? How were my students going to survive? Over a few days I became okay with a fall baby. In fact, now I find it as more of a blessing.

What I have learned from being pregnant with a fall baby:

• I have summer off to prepare. This would be more helpful if we knew if we were moving or not...
• No stress (or little stress). If I were in school I know I'd be stressed out. Every time I went to the doctors after work my blood pressure would always be high. Once they gave me a few minutes, it would go back down. Glad to have summer off!
• I don't have to worry about fall conferences (hopefully)
• Fall walks with J, Hadley, and Oliver will be amazing.
• Less money spent on clothes. I have two maternity dresses, 2 pairs of pants, and one pair of dress pants. I also have about 10 shirts. I refuse to buy any more because I'm not working every day.

A baby is a blessing no matter when it comes.

Every day we are so thankful to have Miss Hadley in our lives, even though she's not quite here. The best thing that ever happened to us was this little surprise we wanted to come but was not expecting six months ago. This has probably been the fastest six months of my life. I feel like the end of August will never get here but at the same time I feel like it's right around the corner.